The question that makes me insane….”What would you eat if you could go back to a gluten filled diet for a day?”
To be honest, I don’t even know where I would begin but I would eat all the food. I would relish in the idea that I don’t have to think before putting anything into my mouth.
But the reality is, that we are at least 8 – 10 years from anything to help with celiac disease. I feel like questions like these just help people live in the fantasy of eating gluten again. My fantasy of eating a Krispy Kreme doughnut doesn’t help the reality I live in. It just makes me jealous and angry that I can’t have it. Then I start obsessing about having that Krispy Kreme doughnut. Everywhere I go, I see Krispy Kreme’s with the “Hot” sign on. My kids start asking for Krispy Kreme and it all spirals out of control – not for me but my attitude.
My attitude starts to get poor about having to eat gluten free. I get angry about eating gluten free. Then I start to think, but one bite won’t hurt. Maybe I don’t have celiac. Maybe I can. I start to resent that I have to eat gluten free while everyone else gets the good stuff. I start furiously making gluten free doughnut holes and am angry they don’t taste like Krispy Kreme. I head to my gluten free bakery, spend a fortune, and then am still unsatisfied that they didn’t taste or even smell like Krispy Kreme.
Then, I have to fight to get back to a place where I know I can’t have it. It is a vicious cycle that can get out of control quite quickly if I don’t nip it in the bud. Even fantasizing about gluten filled living is bad for me. Maybe you don’t have this problem, but I do. Maybe you can separate the fantasy from reality and I love that for you. But I don’t think it is healthy. We aren’t close to being able to eat gluten again and it just doesn’t seem smart.
What do you think?
I miss pizza and donuts and all the the sweets and croissants. Although I did find a bakery in Round Rock, TX that sells amazing croissants and king cakes. (Dream Bakery) I don’t get mad, I tell people that it was Gods way of protecting me from myself. I have no self control when it comes to sweets and bread, and diabetes runs in my family and I don’t need two autoimmune diseases that affect my ability to eat. I already deal with a few food sensitivities on top of being GF. Instead I ask friends to eat things for me and describe it to me, I love my friends, especially the ones that tell me honestly, it’s wasn’t very good. I don’t like when people make fun and say it needed more gluten. Those people are just being jerks, and it’s usually my family members but I let them know it and then they feel bad for being rude especially since I remind some of them they’re an autoimmune trigger away from being in my shoes. I don’t wish this disease on anyone not because it’s not manageable but because it can be difficult at times. I just want it to go away when I’m traveling so I can taste all the things a city has to offer without doing a bunch of research before I go or be flexible on where we can eat.